I am starting a 12 step program.
In this program we are suppose to admit to ourselves, God and another human being (so the dog doesn't count) that I have a problem.
I have chosen to share it with all of you.
Now before you start to smile because you think I am joking, I am 100% serious and I just really need a TON of accountability and support.
My name is Hosmerita (some of you know my real name) and I am an over-eater.
August 23rd will be my day one to recovery.
I hide what I eat.
I feel guilty after eating it.
I know that I eat too much.
The other night, I ate until I almost became physically sick. I was at my sister's and my fingers started to swell up so bad that I had to cut off my wedding ring. I weigh 80 pounds more than I did 4 years ago.
This is my wake up call.
God was telling me that something had to change.
I have a sponsor who has lost 100 pounds in this program and she will be there for me every step of the way.
I e-mail her my meal for the next day the night before and I must stick to it. So I wont be having any more sweets or bad carbs, so please don't be offended if I turn down something you made. My life depends on this.
I weighed in tonight, and then I wont touch the scale until the first of every month.
Wish me luck, have me in your prayers.
Weigh in August 22nd 11:28pm : 181 lbs (10 pounds more than when I went into the hospital to have Richie)